Apparently...! I'm going to the UK again to see my *pseudolonewolf that I own in a few days (I'm leaving on the twoth of October) and I apparently won't be back until somewhere in the last few hours of the 14th of November. So yes! I will not be internettaly connecting or any such things, as usual, so uh... yes! But do I have anything else to actually mention?! I think I need to type a certain amount for my journal CSS to actually LOOK GOOD, otherwise bits all get smushed together or cut off or something... o_O

But uh... Yes! I'm mentioning that now so I can read some comments before I leave and maybe that will also uh... provide seconds of entertainment to help the time pass while I'm waiting to depart! But then nobody will comment at all and will laugh maniacally about it! Or something! Only uh... 50 hours and 15 minutes or something left to wait until the first plane I'll be on during my journey departs...! I bet I'll forget to bring something important like MYSELF or something! Tchsk! It would be just like me to forget something like that!

And uh... uh... I also probably wanted to get some ART done before I left and uh... can't do that until I get back, but I also probably feel like I don't have enough TIME to work on art since I feel like I'm in a state where all I can do is WAIT and it feels like it's "too late" to start anything...

But yes! GOODBYE FOR NOW or something.

It's been a while since my last journal so uh... now I want to replace it with a new one even though I haven't got much to actually say here at all, but I don't like having journals more than a month old on my front page and the last one is almost two months old! But look! I have splattery stuff in my journal CSS now. It's heart-palpitatingly exciting!1

Since I don't have anything specific in mind to mention, I'll just talk about art or something and how I haven't been doing as much of that as I'd like to be doing since I seem to find it really tedious to work on anything at all... Unbearably so! I feel like maybe I'm searching for a way to create artwork and present the subjects of those works that I find particularly interesting or enjoyable to put together that would make me actually feel excited to start something new. Hopefully I can actually find something like that! It's frustrating wanting to be colouring something, but feeling "unable" to because it feels more like a maddening chore than anything...

I probably had some success finding things enjoyable to create when I started using splattery texture things on my artwork, so uh... that's probably a step in the right direction! I hope! I hope there's actually a direction to go in to make working on art more enjoyable for me, especially since doing anything else feels like a chore also. o_O

But uh... I'm also probably in no state of mind to be writing a journal or anything anyway and can't really think clearly or even really think of anything to mention, so uh... I don't think I'll actually say anything else since nothing is coming to mind.

I seem to encounter an annoying number of people who only submit pictures they LIKE that they didn't actually create themselves and want to show other people. They, of course, rarely mention this in any of their artist's comments, and end up getting comments like, "wow! That's amazing!" and saying things like "thanks" in response, unaware that the person thinks they drew the thing themselves, though does end up responding to comments asking if the person drew it themselves with, "no, I only like it and want to show people!"
Some of these people submit these things as PRINTS though?! Agh...! I think deviantART might need to make it more obvious that you're only supposed to submit your OWN artwork, since it says nothing about that on the front page or the submission page or anything... (Though I wonder if they'd have to specify that you have to have actually DRAWN the image yourself since, if they just said "submit your own artwork", people might sillily think that a piece of artwork is "theirs" just because they have it saved on their computer in the same way they would think a piece of artwork is "theirs" if they had a print of it or something...)

Tsk, I've seen some really stupid situations relating to that too though... Like one person submitting some official image of SONIC from some game thing and then some other person who submitted the same image before them complains at them for submitting it because "it's MY image! I submitted it first, so it's MINE!"
"Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't know."
"It's okay, as long as you know it's mine."

o_O

People like that make me wonder how many people actually have creative hobbies or even realise that that artwork was drawn by *someone* who put time and effort into what they drew and instead think of the art they see as just some soulless product from some company or something? I often assume people DO have creative hobbies, but I also somehow end up forgetting that there's a whole world of people outside deviantART that I completely forget about because they uh... aren't the sorts of people who would be on deviantART or even spend much time at all on the internet! Which uh... shows how much time I spend on the internet. o_O

I wonder how many of those people would say things like uh... "you spent a whole HOUR on a drawing?! You have no life!"
I wonder that because of the story behind this piece of artwork. Tsk! =_=

And uh... yes. I'm ranting about things because I just encountered YET ANOTHER person who submits artwork that isn't theirs because they just want to show it to people when they can do that by either adding the image to their favourites or linking to it in a journal entry or something.

And uh... I'll also mention that I asked the doctor about my elbow thing and she said it might be golfer's elbow or tennis elbow and that it's probably caused by using it too much, so uh... I'm just mentioning that in case anyone is curious because of my last journal entry!

I have more than one month'd since the last journal entry thing here! Gasp! But uh... what I want to talk about is my RIGHT ARM, since it reacts annoyingly to being extended, bent or pushed against things in certain ways. The sensation is pretty much identical to the tinging you would feel if you bumped your elbow against something and your elbow, forearm, and hand start tingling unpleasantly. Yes. Just like that, but without the actual pain of having uh... bumped into something. o_O

The tingling can be various levels of intensity (I can extend my arm quickly and only feel it really mildly...), but sometimes it's so strong that it actually feels like I've physically bumped into something with my elbow and end up looking around me to see what it could have been, but nothing was actually there for me to collide with. If I end up causing that tingling multiple times throughout the day, my arm ends up feeling uh... mildly odd probably for hours after and feels sort of tingly depending on how it's positioned. (It's feeling odd right now, actually. I don't think it likes the mouse-using position very much... My fifth finger feels sort of tingly because of it.) I think my arm might have been this way for months or something. I know it feels like it's been like this for ages anyway.

ANYWAY, uh... I don't really know what would cause something like that and hope it's not something that's going to end up getting horribly worse since I do need my right arm for things like DRAWING and am wondering if anyone else is familiar with the symptoms or recongnise it as a sign of something yet to develop or something.

Other than that uh... I've been so unmotivated and uninspired! How frustrating! I want to draw something, but my lack of inspiration makes it so incredibly difficult to work on anything. Tsk. Also, Internet Explorer 6 is horrible and frustrating and causes stupid web design problems! It also makes my website look horrible because it can't display PNG image transparency properly. It makes me cringe to think of people viewing my website (or even this journal...) with that browser and thinking it looks horrible because of all the weirdly-coloured boxes and that I must be a terrible designer to think that THAT looks good when it's just a problem with the browser itself. o_O

It feels like my other journal is getting old, so uh... here's a new one. Do you ever have dreams where you end up eating some kind of food? If so, does the food taste like it's supposed to? Because whenever I dream about eating something (which is rarely...) it turns out to be very unpleasant because all food in my dreams has a really disgusting uh... greasy, bitter, and salty flavour to it... I think most of those dreams end up being about me not being able to get the flavour out of my mouth after I've eaten something, or I eat something and then eat more hoping that the flavour the thing is SUPPOSED to have will get rid of the flavour it has in the dream. Which is a brilliant idea. o_O

Other than that, I'm also going to say that I don't comment/write journals/make polls very often because I seem to get quite nervous about it... I end up getting comments in my inbox and thinking I should respond to them, but I just tell myself I'll do it later and then never get around to it... (Which makes me feel bad! D: ) I do appreciate and read all the comments I get though, but uh... nervousness. Yes. Sometimes I write comments, journal entries and uh... a question and some options for a poll, but never actually end up submitting them and if I ever do, I end up feeling panicky about them for the next several days or longer probably. Isn't that exciting?!

Now I'll go to bed and have this journal stuck in my mind, probably half wishing I never wrote it or something and wondering what people will say in response if anyone even responds at all! o_O