It's been a while since my last journal so uh... now I want to replace it with a new one even though I haven't got much to actually say here at all, but I don't like having journals more than a month old on my front page and the last one is almost two months old! But look! I have splattery stuff in my journal CSS now. It's heart-palpitatingly exciting!1

Since I don't have anything specific in mind to mention, I'll just talk about art or something and how I haven't been doing as much of that as I'd like to be doing since I seem to find it really tedious to work on anything at all... Unbearably so! I feel like maybe I'm searching for a way to create artwork and present the subjects of those works that I find particularly interesting or enjoyable to put together that would make me actually feel excited to start something new. Hopefully I can actually find something like that! It's frustrating wanting to be colouring something, but feeling "unable" to because it feels more like a maddening chore than anything...

I probably had some success finding things enjoyable to create when I started using splattery texture things on my artwork, so uh... that's probably a step in the right direction! I hope! I hope there's actually a direction to go in to make working on art more enjoyable for me, especially since doing anything else feels like a chore also. o_O

But uh... I'm also probably in no state of mind to be writing a journal or anything anyway and can't really think clearly or even really think of anything to mention, so uh... I don't think I'll actually say anything else since nothing is coming to mind.